This past weekend, someone I care about a great deal did something that hurt me deeply. I have no idea if they are aware of how deeply I was hurt. They never acknowledged it or apologised for what happened, you see. For all I know, they are utterly oblivious of the pain they caused.
And that is okay.
I can say that now and truly mean it. Let me explain…
I know this person to be kind and considerate, so I am sure it wasn’t done deliberately. Thoughtlessly, maybe, but not on purpose. Even in amongst my pain and tears, I knew this to be true. Knowing it, however, didn’t make it hurt any less. When I got home on Saturday night, I was barely holding myself together. Soon after, I was in my bed, hugging my pillow and crying my heart out.
This experience had triggered a deep wound from the past. After countless sessions of Resonance Repatterning, I was able to recognise the signs. I have learnt that such deep feelings of total devastation are most likely connected with an earlier experience, especially when the appear to be so totally out of proportion with the event that has triggered them. What my friend had done did not seem to justify such feelings of devastation.
I knew I needed a session, but I also knew that I couldn’t give it to myself this time. When we have been let down by someone like that, it’s an earlier experience of having no one there to meet our needs that’s being triggered, so more than anything else, what we need in that moment is support from another person. We need to feel we matter, we are loved, and that there is someone there for us – that we are important. Luckily for me, I have many wonderful colleagues who give excellent Resonance Repatterning sessions, in all kinds of different time zones. The first one I texted was more than willing to drop everything, get on a call with me, and give me a session. I cannot thank her enough for this.
We went into a Heart Protector Meridian repatterning, which makes sense as the Heart Protector’s job is to – not surprisingly – take the blows that are aimed at our heart and protect it! In the earlier experience we identified, I felt misunderstood, unsupported, and that I was no one’s priority. After the session, I felt better. My tears had dried up and though there was still pain, it was manageable and in proportion to the event that had triggered it.
The next day, I gave myself another session, this time from the Energetics of Relationship book. I got out of the house, went shopping with my daughter, and by the time I got home, I was feeling good again. By the following morning, it had all blown over.
I saw my friend a couple of days later and all was well. In fact, it was better than before. I feel more centred, more empowered, more happy with my life and my choices. In hindsight, everything happens for a reason. I learnt something from this experience and, hopefully, my friend did too. I was able to heal another deep wound that I was carrying with me and I am stronger and happier for it.
I was reminded that every problem is a gift if we choose to unwrap it and use it for our growth.