My 2-year-old was the focus of my emotions this week, and there were all sorts of feelings that came up, from fear to grief, anger to abandonment. When I was two, my mum had to leave me with my grandparents for a few days and this experience somehow reinforced my belief that, if I am … Continue reading Week 6 – I Integrate Charged Emotion

The ebb and flow of emotions continues and I'm finding it much easier to go with their flow and allow them to integrate. I feel better able to do the breathing practice without my mind wandering. And I am much more aware of the reflections and my projections in the world around me. This week … Continue reading Week 5 – I Am Innocent

People say that life might feel like it's going round in circles sometimes, but actually it's a spiral. This week was a bit like that as I felt the pain and grief of his rejection again, and the pain and grief of my 13-year-old self. There wasn't any particular interaction between us that reactivated this … Continue reading Week 4 – I Feel Unconditionally

The emotions have been intense this week, with the worst experience happening at 2 am, when I woke up and almost threw up from the anxiety. I have had visions of waking up in hospital as a newborn, far from my mother, not knowing where I am, my body tense and on high alert, unable … Continue reading Week 3 – I Choose to Respond

This week - week two of The Presence Process - the memories of earlier experiences and intuitive knowing of what was going on for me back then have become clearer. I have been able to get back to some of my usual activities and stay present in the process too. As the grief abated somewhat, … Continue reading Week 2 – I Recognize my Reflections and Projections